I moved out to the north of New Zealand to a little beach town called Paihia and did my best to live healthy,
let go of resentments, and enjoyed life again just letting go of all that extra emotional baggage I had been holding onto
and interestingly enough the tumour started to shrink.
And it continued to shrink! 6 months later it was to about a third of its original size. Put this into prospective it went from the size of a tennis ball to the size of a golf ball!
Good living and gratitude for life really worked wonders for me.
When I met my Neuro surgeon again I explained to him what I’d done and he just said ‘Great, I’m all about results. If something is working for you then maybe it’s the right thing for you.’ What a legend!
Unfortunately not all the other doctors were as pleased with my decision. One of them said ‘Well, we give you this medication for a reason and if you don’t listen to us we can’t be responsible if something goes wrong.’
So I ended up getting back on some of the medication, but I really believe the main reason I got better so quickly was because I let go of all the emotional baggage. I guess you can say it was spontaneous healing. I’m fortunate enough to be able to say the tumour is in remission.
Physically I’ve changed though. I can’t do endurance sports like distance running or the Iron man event. But I feel pretty good. I picked up some good habits while in hospital and started singing and playing the guitar. This is now my therapy.
Music is my escape. Playing the guitar was something that I always wanted to do and it took me 32 years before I finally did something about it.
Before the tumour accumulating material things was important to me. I felt like I needed to have a really nice car, nice clothes all the latest and greatest gadgets but now I like to live as simple as possible!
It excites me to be able to fit everything in my bag in a moment’s notice and just travel anywhere when I want or need to. I no longer need to prove myself any more through material possessions or try to be the “cool guy” and that is hugely liberating. Image was very big part of my life because of the industry that I was in when I was younger.
To be famous just because you did a hit TV show is pretty meaningless to me now. Mainly because I felt I haven’t actually done anything. Don’t get me wrong. Having fame and all that extra money was fun for a while but it didn’t really fulfil me for very long.
At the end of the day I’d like to be known for contributing something to the world that is more than just a made up character.
Helen Keller’s Quotes is one of my favourites:
“Life is either a Daring Adventure or nothing at all”
So now is my chance to change things for myself and find the gift that I believe I am meant to give to the world.
Thanks for sharing my story.